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  Getting Lost with Boys

  Hailey Abbott

  Contents

  Chapter One

  Cordelia Packer was the most uncomfortable she’d ever been. More…

  Chapter Two

  Cordelia stood at the front door of her rambling white…

  Chapter Three

  Cordelia was fuming. For the zillionth time that Tuesday, she…

  Chapter Four

  Cordelia and Jake managed to get out of the traffic…

  Chapter Five

  Cordelia didn’t get a wink of sleep that night. She…

  Chapter Six

  Cordelia felt rejuvenated as Jake drove the Charger through the…

  Chapter Seven

  Cordelia arrived at Mandalay Bay around ten thirty that night.

  Chapter Eight

  Cordelia was still crouched down on the floor, trying to…

  Chapter Nine

  Cordelia checked her Swatch. Three P.M. On an ordinary Thursday,…

  Chapter Ten

  Cordelia and Jake made it through the night and lived…

  Chapter Eleven

  An hour or two later, the Charger pulled up in…

  Chapter Twelve

  The rest of the evening had been like the WordReference.com…

  Chapter Thirteen

  They’d been on the road for five hours, and Cordelia…

  Chapter Fourteen

  Cordelia had thought standing between Jake and Paul was awkward,…

  Chapter Fifteen

  Cordelia wanted to dig her own grave as she watched…

  Chapter Sixteen

  Cordelia woke up at noon to a throbbing headache and…

  About the Author

  Credits

  Copyright

  About the Publisher

  Chapter One

  Cordelia Packer was the most uncomfortable she’d ever been. More uncomfortable than when she’d contracted the chicken pox from Alexis Dunbar, her best friend, in kindergarten. More uncomfortable than when she’d puked up her hot dog lunch onto Alexis’s shoes during the semifinal round of the fifth-grade spelling bee after being asked to spell “forsythia.” Actually, now that Cordelia thought about it, she was experiencing the most uncomfortable moment of her life, and Alexis was nowhere to be found. Weird. She wished she could call Alexis now.

  But even weirder was the fact that she was out here camping. Cordelia never slept on anything except a queen-size bed fitted with two layers of four-hundred–thread-count sheets and a goose down comforter. Now she was lying on the floor of a tent that smelled like wet canvas, trying to reach the stone that had been digging into her back all night. This stone had single-handedly ruined the restful sleep that she had planned, and it was currently threatening to ruin something that could have been etched in her mind as the most incredible moment of all time, instead of the most uncomfortable. That certain something was the full-on, hip-grinding make-out session she was having with her exceptionally wonderful and gorgeous boyfriend, Paul.

  Not only was Paul seriously sexy, he also had a way of convincing Cordelia to put aside her slightly rigid quality-of-life requirements. This time, he had won her over with the fact that Torrey Pines State Reserve was located near the beach. Cordelia hadn’t heard the word near—only the word beach. Cordelia always considered the beach to be her second home—she just loved listening to the roaring sound of the ocean waves. But instead of relaxing in the sand, she was nestled in a tepee-like contraption and surrounded by a forest of pine trees. Not exactly what she’d had in mind.

  But she tried to refocus her thoughts on the good stuff, like how Paul was now kissing the length of her neck. God, Paul was a good kisser—“good” as in he had the power to make her forget some pretty important things, like what time it was, her first name, and what planet she was on.

  “Is this okay?” Paul asked softly as he pulled her closer.

  “Mmm, yes, that feels great,” she murmured.

  Just then Cordelia managed to wiggle so the stone shifted out from underneath her without Paul noticing a thing. What a relief. She could finally enjoy the Paul Morgan lip-lock experience.

  Yeah, not a chance. Cordelia could never turn her brain off, even if someone paid her a million dollars to throw the switch. While she was thinking about how Paul’s breath was so sweet and his lips were so soft, she was simultaneously obsessing that her own breath might smell like feet, the really sweaty kind. She hadn’t been able to brush her teeth since last night. She also reminded herself that she usually slept with her mouth open, so who knew what might have flown in there!

  Paul stopped nuzzling her neck for a minute to look deep into her eyes. He never let a day go by without mentioning how remarkably blue hers were, but she didn’t expect him to say anything nice about the icky white stuff that was surely stuck in the corners of them now. He ran his hands through her long honey-blond hair, which Cordelia assumed felt greasy and disgusting—she hadn’t had a chance to wash out the styling product build-up.

  Why, oh why didn’t I wake up at the crack of dawn to take a shower? Cordelia thought. Then she remembered the questionable conditions of public campground restrooms and the answer became crystal clear.

  She tried to distract herself by slipping a hand under Paul’s T-shirt and tracing the shape of a heart on his back with her fingertip. For a non-jock, he had the most amazingly buff swimmer-type body. Ripped abs, arms that were toned (not jacked), broad shoulders. Cordelia had to restrain herself from climbing all over him as if he were a rock wall. Speaking of which, Paul was slightly over six feet tall and towered over Cordelia’s small, five-foot-three frame. Even lying down next to him, she felt dwarfed, but that was fine with her. It almost made her feel protected.

  Protection seemed to be on Paul’s mind, too. As they were pressed up against each other tightly, he stretched out over Cordelia and made a move for his wallet. She knew what was in there. They had talked about this before. He’d only been with one person, which is very respectable for a seventeen-year-old guy. And noble too. As for Cordelia, she had just turned sixteen a couple of weeks ago and had racked up a big whopping zero conquests overall. She was cool with it, though. She was just waiting for the right person, and the right time and place.

  Paul leaned back over her and delicately kissed her forehead. “You take my breath away, you know that?” he whispered.

  All right, it seems like I have the right guy, chirped the voice inside Cordelia’s head. After all, they had been going out for a few months and he was super-hot and incredibly nice.

  But was this the right time and place? Highly doubtful. If it happened here and now, it would be an impromptu, spontaneous event, and those never happened to Cordelia Packer, the most structured, organized, type-A teenage girl in San Diego. In fact, Cordelia was the reason the Container Store existed and why Excel spreadsheets had been invented. Even if Cordelia had planned on Paul going into his wallet to dig out something that had a wrapper (but wasn’t a piece of gum), she hadn’t planned on being this nervous and sick to her stomach. She didn’t feel right. A vision of Alexis Dunbar and the word F-O-R-S-Y-T-H-I-A flashed before her eyes. This was definitely not good. She had to do something quick, or else Paul would be covered in last night’s veggie burgers.

  “I think I need to go to the bathroom,” she said abruptly.

  Not really all that classy, but hey, when you gotta go, you gotta go.

  “Now?” Paul asked.

  Cordelia could tell he was disappointed. “I know, bad timing.”

  “That’s okay.” Paul closed his wallet and tossed it to the other side of the tent. “You have to listen when nature calls, right?”

  “Yeah, sorry about that,”
Cordelia said while giving his right hand an affectionate squeeze.

  “Don’t be sorry. We’ll pick up where we left off some other time,” Paul said with a smile.

  The guy couldn’t be any more perfect. Another boy might have argued with her. Or begged, whined, and complained. But Paul was so much more mature and sensitive and understanding. Sometimes he seemed older than his seventeen years. Maybe that was why her parents were so impressed with him. She couldn’t imagine them letting her go off camping with just any Joe Schmo. Yet there was something about Paul that made you trust him.

  Maybe it was his gentleness or his humility or the way his shaggy brown hair always looked so disheveled. There was nothing manic or hyper about Paul either—no macho posturing, no posing or phoniness. He was honest and as natural as the Tom’s of Maine personal hygiene products he used. He seemed to be everything Cordelia had ever wanted.

  So why the hell did I freak out just now? Cordelia thought as she made her way out of the tent.

  “Hey, could you grab a paper cup or something from the ladies’ room? I just spotted a lizard in here and I want to find a good spot for it in the woods,” Paul called out.

  Cordelia shivered. Lizard? In the tent? She had no idea how Paul could be so “one with the outdoors.” The stuff that Paul liked to do—camping, hiking, bird-watching—all could be filed under the category Anti-Cordelia. She mostly preferred the indoors, where she could make the environment suit her. Temperature in her bedroom too hot? Turn up the air. Too dark to read in the living room? Turn on a light. And there were doors and locks to keep out any unwanted intruders or scaly, slimy living creatures. Here in the wilderness, she had absolutely no control. As far as Cordelia was concerned, it was just plain anarchy. The only exception to the “Outside Bad, Inside Good” rule was, of course, the beach.

  Cordelia trudged over to the public restroom, stepping on twigs and leaves along the way. In the distance, she could have sworn she heard the roll of the surf and smelled the saltiness of the Pacific air. Maybe before heading home she and Paul could go take a nice stroll along the shoreline and get their feet wet. It wasn’t on the itinerary that he had drawn up before the trip (which she’d encouraged him to do, of course), but neither was the lizard. Unfortunately, surprises happen. And even though they wouldn’t be looking through binoculars at some rare natural specimen, it would be fun, right?

  Certainly Paul could see that she was going out of her way to participate in the things that mattered to him. She’d already given up junk food (including Taco Bell—her passion!) because he was worried about her LDL levels or pesticides on the shredded lettuce or something like that. She was currently in a public campground bathroom, touching a bunch of grimy sink fixtures without the hope of having any anti-bacterial soap come out of the dispensers. And in a few minutes, she was apparently going to help him start a lizard relocation program. Surely he could stop at the beach for a few minutes and appease her tiny, insignificant wishes, right?

  Of course, he can. Cordelia decided to mention it to him the moment after they scooped up that lizard with a Dixie cup.

  Or maybe she could say something even sooner. When she came out of the bathroom, Paul was standing right in front of her, all aglow in the morning sunlight.

  “Whoa, where did you come from?” Cordelia said, startled. Then she thought about their tent being occupied by a lizard. “Did you leave that…thing…alone…with our stuff?”

  “Oh, I just picked up the little guy up with my hands and put him down on a mossy log. No biggie,” Paul replied nonchalantly.

  “With your hands?” Cordelia swore she heard forsythia spelling itself out again in her head.

  “I’m scrubbed-in like a surgeon, so don’t worry.” Paul laughed.

  “Hey, no fair. I had to touch everything in there with my knees.”

  Paul laughed even harder. “Cordy, you’ve got to relax. I don’t think you’ve taken one deep, cleansing breath since we’ve gotten here.”

  Cordelia shrugged. Paul was very into meditating, so much so that he could probably have given Buddhist monks a run for their money. She had thought about giving in to Paul’s gentle suggestions and trying meditation herself, but even if she did, she seriously doubted that she could ever reach his level of tranquillity. She was too busy evaluating everything she did, planning what she would do next, and consulting her to-do lists, that there never seemed to be a good enough time to inhale, exhale, and let all of it go.

  Suddenly, Paul’s eyes widened as he peered over Cordelia’s shoulder. “You’re not going to believe this,” he said, “but I think I heard a red-legged honeycreeper.”

  “Cool,” she replied.

  He smiled. “You don’t know what I’m talking about, do you?”

  “Well, I’m assuming it’s some kind of a bird.”

  “It’s pretty rare to find that species around here.” Paul glanced at his digital watch. “Damn, we’re going to have to check out soon. Want to get some quick birding in before we leave?”

  Cordelia wanted to be honest. She’d already made up the having-to-pee story in order to get out of going too far with Paul. Now, here she was in a similar situation. She wanted to go to the beach instead of scour the forest in search of wildlife. She knew she should just say something and that he’d be fine with it. But Cordelia felt a little guilty for depriving him once already today, and if she denied him the red honey something-or-other, that just might be too much for him to take.

  “Go get your binoculars,” Cordelia said, and kissed him on the cheek.

  Paul appeared to be overjoyed. “You’re the best,” he said, hugging her. “Be right back.”

  Cordelia put her wistful thoughts of frothy, warm saltwater and a gentle tepid breeze out of her mind, and tried to remind herself that although she’d never had a reason to compromise before, she had a good one now.

  Cordelia and Paul hiked for about a half hour, but they never found the red-legged whatever. Paul seemed a little disappointed, even though he’d kept telling her that they weren’t really common to Southern California. Cordelia hadn’t minded at all, though. Some of Paul’s words had been repeating themselves in her brain—“Maybe someday we’ll go birding in Colorado. That’s where you can see some special ones.”

  I can’t wait, Cordelia thought as Paul’s gold Toyota Prius hybrid zipped down Route 75. The sun was out in full force, and she could feel her skin soaking up large quantities of vitamin D. Paul had insisted that they roll down the windows and cool off the un-artificial way, but Cordelia somehow convinced him to put on the air-conditioning instead. Humidity always dehydrated her and did funky things to her hair. Besides, she had just tamed it with a cute ponytail and didn’t want fifty-five-mile-per-hour winds to mess it up.

  This explanation made Paul chuckle—apparently he found Cordelia’s little quirks very entertaining. He put an arm around her shoulder. “It’s such a beautiful day. I hope it’s like this the entire summer.”

  Cordelia tried to swallow the lump that had formed in her throat. She’d known this day was coming. Paul had informed her about his plans when they first met at the Twelfth Annual Mission Bay High School Quiz Tournament. Her team had kicked his team’s butt and afterward Paul had come by to congratulate her on the big win. Cordelia had been so nervous talking to him, especially because Alexis Dunbar was in the vicinity. Luckily, Paul had been so easygoing that Cordelia’s anxiety had disappeared within minutes. A few days later, they went to this club called Hot Monkey Love Café and talked for hours. They chatted about how summer loomed in the distance, and that’s when he dropped the bomb. From late June until early August, he’d be giving tours at Yosemite National Park, more than four hundred miles away.

  It had seemed so far off in the distance back then, but now the moment was here. Even though Paul was going to be out of sight, Cordelia knew that he’d never be out of her mind. She gazed out the window and tried not to get all blubbery in front of him. She definitely didn’t want his last memo
ries of her to involve watery red eyes and snot.

  Paul moved his hand down to her leg and began to rub it gently. “Hey, I’m going to miss you.”

  Cordelia took her gaze off the trees whizzing by and looked at him. She put both her flip-flop-adorned feet onto the dashboard. Paul raised his eyebrows a little bit, so she thought better of it and put them back on the floor.

  “What have you been thinking about?” Paul asked.

  “You’ve been quiet for most of the trip.”

  “How much I’m going to miss you,” she replied, then bit her lip. Maybe she shouldn’t have said that. Her older sister, Molly, who was pretty much a legend at Mission Bay High, had only written one list in her lifetime. It was called Molly Packer’s Rules to Getting Any Guy You Want, and rule number seven was: “Never let a boy know you’re crazy about him. He’ll lose interest, and then you’ll be a loser.”

  Cordelia tried to banish her sister’s words to a faraway, desertlike region of her mind. Clearly, Molly didn’t know what she was talking about, because right now Paul was looking at her with more than interest in his eyes. She felt pretty damn sure he was just as crazy about her.

  “Well, I’m sure you’re going to have plenty of distractions,” Paul said, grinning.

  “Oh, whatever. My head will be in the books.”

  “Yeah, right,” Paul said mockingly. “You and your sister are going to be spending the entire summer in Eureka, a total college town, without your parents. That apartment is going to be party central.”

  “Molly will be partying,” she said. “I will be studying. C’mon, you know me well enough to know that when college credit courses become available at a cheap state school like Molly’s, I’m the first one in line to sign up.”

  “Stop it,” Paul said. “You’re turning me on.”